Sunday, January 22, 2012

Ruminations

It's rather dreary for winter in the south. Warm- in the 60s- but gray with just a bite of rain in the air. This is the kind of weather I normally love, and not at all typical for January. Normally this weather would find me curled up with a book and a blanket, and maybe a juice spritzer (too warm for tea, really.) But today I can't settle, either mentally or physically. I keep casting longing glances at my studio, even though today is the day I'm supposed to ignore that little voice that tells me I had better be working.
Does anyone else have that little voice? Do you know the one I'm talking about?
Does anyone else feel the world is a little grayer when you're not actively writing or pursuing the act of writing? 'Cause today I do- I have a major (for me) release out that's something like two days old. I have guest posts to write, bloggers to approach, things to edit, a serial to write every week, the sequel to the current release to send off, countless little book maintenance things, and blah blah blah. And every moment that I'm not doing something on this list feels a little screwy. And then there's the pressure of doing well- early reviews are good, requests for ARCs are brisk, and for the first time I've been uploaded to NetGalley and had (I was told) a slew of requests. All of this is good, but I still have that squirmy, better-be-writing feeling. I guess what I'm saying is that nothing, neither success nor failure nor simple ho-hum has much of an impact on this squirmy gray feeling of never enough.
Sometimes I wish I had a nice quiet life making lattes somewhere. 
But writing is something I literally must do. Every single time I've taken a break from writing, or decided I couldn't do it, for whatever reason, my life explodes in my face. And so- back to the treadmill, knowing I'm fortunate to be on it at all. 
I don't intend for this to sound like a bunch of complaining. Like I said, I do feel fortunate to be on the treadmill at all. Chalk it up to meditations for a gray day, and maybe I'll manage to actually take today off, a fact I will celebrate with Godiva should I manage it.
As for accountability, I lost all of the first of the week scaling Mt. Editing. I can gratefully say I've caught up so that I'm doing a little better than treading water on that front, so I don't expect it to slow me down quite so much. As far as my own writing goes, I finished the almost-final draft of the second book in the Chronicles of Nowhere series. I'm waiting to hear from betas, but unless something is drastically wrong that I can't see, I anticipate being done with it. So that's an almost 35,000 word novella I finished this week, with a wc of probably 4,000 original words this week alone. That's still on average with the last round, but not quite up to my new goal of 6,000 per week. However. Since I now have a serial going, I expect to be able to meet this easily going forward. 
I managed to do an epic amount of reading, considering. Reading really is one of the few ways I manage to relax without feeling guilty because, after all, it's research, right? :) I finished Cate Tiernan's Immortal Beloved series, which was excellent, and read Kelly Creagh's Nevermore. Responding to ROW80 participants was a bit of a fail, but I did read a half-dozen blogs. I just didn't add to the commentary, which I will try to fix this week. I am happy to report I managed to keep up with all my blogging goals, including that difficult-to-fit-in Friday blog. 
That's really all the important stuff as far as ROW80 goals go. Considering how slammed I've been this week, I suppose it works out. And hopefully next week will be even better.
I wanted to take a minute and thank everyone who's stopped by and offered their support, and especially everyone who read my serialized novel over at curiosityquills.com and gave me such positive feedback. It really meant a lot to have the support of The Row! Thank you guys, and see you at the next check-in! -V

6 comments:

  1. I've definitely had that feeling of, "man wouldn't this all be easier if I'd been happy working retail?" But, I wasn't and I can't keep the stories and things I need to do from scratching at my brain either. Maybe we'll be normal and content in our next lives. :)

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  2. I told someone last week that I wish I can go work at Chipotle and just make burritos! Seriously, how calming would that be to just put together a burrito bowl? Or Starbucks...but my hubby says that I'd be too amped up with caffeine after a shift. :)

    I think everything you're doing is fabulous and don't forget to take time out to breathe!

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  3. Ha. That little task master never shuts up. Even on vacation! But as much as a PITA writing can be, it's in your blood. It's who you are. Good luck this week :)

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  4. I know that little voice well. Lately its the Choremeister voice yelling, "Stop writing constantly and mop the kitchen floor!" Oh, to have someone to clean up after me and press my clothes, etc... oh, and my children's clothes.

    Your attitude is awesome... I have a feeling your ROW80 goals will continue to be reached... you rock!

    Have a great week!

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  5. Thanks all! Your encouragement means a lot- I guess I can go work at Starbucks tomorrow!

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  6. I don't know if I have a little voice who says the world is grayer without writing, but I definitely have a voice that constantly nags me, saying, "Why aren't you writing???" It never goes away, even when I have 50,000 other things to do that legitimately keep me from writing.
    Good luck with the next book in your new series. BTW- The cover is just gorgeous!

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